Hey guys! Happy 2016!!!
So, I’m halfway through my first year of college and it’s almost time to apply for a new school ‘coz I’m really not feeling it at my current school (or rather, I’m feeling way too strongly against everything at my current school). I don’t know if it’s because of the people I hang with, who are just so URGH, or the course I’m doing, Fine Arts, which is what I’ve been doing for pretty much my whole life and is honestly getting a little routine/repetitive/redundant due to having come from a specialized art school. Continue reading
Christmas is coming up! And New Year’s is just around the corner! This is always my favorite time of the year. Time to let go of the past and start anew. There have been a few things that happened recently that still irk me up to this very moment, and I want to just get it off my chest in the hopes that I’ll feel WAY better after (which is usually the case).
A couple of weeks ago, our 2nd semester at school just started, so it was pretty much just introductions. In one particular class, the teacher openly admitted/warned us that she can be arrogant most of the time. I was absolutely fine with that, having dealt with much worse in my previous school. Arrogance is the least of my worries, really. After we introduced ourselves to the teacher, she asked the class if anyone of us were arrogant too. Quite shockingly, they pointed at me! I was quite offended by this. Never have I ever been described as arrogant! Nor do I think I have EVER been arrogant! Nonetheless, with this bunch of people who I barely know, and who barely know me! But, being the nice and NON-arrogant person that I was, I shrugged it off and said nothing against it that day. However, I can never really get over it until I justify myself to somebody, anybody…so here goes. Continue reading
It’s been 5 days since I had this dream, but I haven’t fully gotten over it yet. Usually, when I have an unusual or weird dream, I write it down, look up some stuff, and never think about it again (unless it recurs). This one, though, left me in such a daze that I started to really think about the choices I’m making, and what I really want to do with my life.
From what I wrote down that morning, the dream seemed to take place in present time. I was saying ‘goodbye’ to my blockmates (including the ones who had already left), who were in uniform, in an unfamiliar car park. They were saying things like, “Congrats, Agnes!”, “Good luck, Agnes! Take care!”, and other positive and congratulatory exclamations. We then parted ways, and I sat on a bench in the car park with some girl whom I don’t think I’ve ever met in real life. She was telling me how she was going to miss me so much, and how we weren’t going to be able to “hang out like this” anymore. Everything fades to black, and I wake up the next day. Continue reading
Hey guys! It’s been a while, but here I am! And, boy, do I have a sharing for you!
First of all, tomorrow’s the opening of Manila Art!!! Yay! But I forgot to brush up on my art movements and techniques, so I may not be the best usher(ette) I can be tomorrow…oh well! An usher(ette?) nonetheless 😛
And now to the good bits…
Hey guys! Quick post/update…
So, yesterday, I experienced a lot of lower back pain (again). I couldn’t get out of bed…like, I was paralyzed from the neck down. I was stuck, basically. Thankfully, like the last time it happened, I could get up after an hour, but I walked weirdly haha. So I thought I shouldn’t over-exert myself by walking to school (in heels might I add, which is mandatory at my school 😛 ).
Anyways, I read somewhere that caffeine is an ingredient in a lot of painkillers. So it just clicked in my mind that all the Starbucks trips I’ve made must have increased my pain tolerance slowly over the years. And God knows how much I love Starbucks, and how often I drink it…hehe…So, naturally, once I was able enough, I decided to go to Starbucks! (Haha, hey, I brought homework so I could chill there and be productive too, okay?)
Yo yo yo! Waddup?
Obviously, I’m in a good mood. Hehe, it’s Sunday morning, so why wouldn’t I be? Anyways, I’ve got lots of good and positive stuff to share with you guys, so let’s get started.
I’m afraid I can’t write too much today, since I’ve got lots of stuff to do for tomorrow. “Why am I writing at all?”, you ask. Well, this couldn’t wait, so here goes…
I’m now extremely ashamed and disappointed with myself. I just feel so embarrassed all the time now…like, I almost don’t wanna leave the house anymore due to sheer embarrassment. ALMOST! I’ve done that before, and I don’t wanna be that kind of person again. I told myself I’d change this year, but it seems like the more I try, I become something much worse 😦
Hey guys 🙂
Two posts in a row…so far, so good. I felt slightly better after ranting yesterday, and it reminded me of why I started this blog in the first place. I started this blog last year because I was being put (and putting myself) under a lot of unnecessary pressure. And I couldn’t really talk to anyone about it because I’m a coward. I’ve known that for a while…There’s this thing in Psychology when a person has such low self-confidence that they project it as over-confidence…I think, for me, it’s this PLUS my ego.
Super sorry I’ve been gone for so many months. School was out for me for so long that I got too bored to do anything for a long while 😦 And now that I’m in college, and having classes again, I’m still feeling a mixture of excitement, anxiety and boredom.
It’s my third month schooling back here in the Philippines, and so far I’ve had lows…and highs…and many many lows again. I don’t get it anymore. I mean, it’s definitely different here from Singapore. Continue reading
Happy Friday the 13th! (The second one of 2015 actually…)
(Just f.y.i., ’13’ just happens to be my luckiest number, and ‘Friday the 13th’ has never failed to be one of the better days in my life so far.)
So I’ve been really free lately, which leaves me a lot (too much) time to think. And my mind just can’t seem to stop thinking back on the embarrassing, funny, scary, anxious, fun, happy, sad and generally memorable moments I’ve had in SOTA (my former high school)…I think this is what people think/feel before they start seeking closure, am I right? And if ‘closure’ is what I want, then I really have to visit them really soon. It’s starting to get annoying.
Anyways, I brought that up because I started reflecting on my ‘Arts journey’ in SOTA, if that makes any sense, and I realized that I auditioned into SOTA under Visual Arts ONLY because it was what I thought would be beneficial and it was what I was more passionate about at the time…But after just a month in that school, I quickly realized that I may have joined the wrong art form. Why? Well…