I’m never sure how to answer the question, “Where is home?”
I’m just getting back into the swing of things. As usual, I’ve always treated this blog as a sort of confessional online journal of my life. I always come back to this when something has bothered/been bothering me; hence, here I am. Continue reading
Christmas is coming up! And New Year’s is just around the corner! This is always my favorite time of the year. Time to let go of the past and start anew. There have been a few things that happened recently that still irk me up to this very moment, and I want to just get it off my chest in the hopes that I’ll feel WAY better after (which is usually the case).
A couple of weeks ago, our 2nd semester at school just started, so it was pretty much just introductions. In one particular class, the teacher openly admitted/warned us that she can be arrogant most of the time. I was absolutely fine with that, having dealt with much worse in my previous school. Arrogance is the least of my worries, really. After we introduced ourselves to the teacher, she asked the class if anyone of us were arrogant too. Quite shockingly, they pointed at me! I was quite offended by this. Never have I ever been described as arrogant! Nor do I think I have EVER been arrogant! Nonetheless, with this bunch of people who I barely know, and who barely know me! But, being the nice and NON-arrogant person that I was, I shrugged it off and said nothing against it that day. However, I can never really get over it until I justify myself to somebody, anybody…so here goes. Continue reading
Hey guys! Quick post/update…
So, yesterday, I experienced a lot of lower back pain (again). I couldn’t get out of bed…like, I was paralyzed from the neck down. I was stuck, basically. Thankfully, like the last time it happened, I could get up after an hour, but I walked weirdly haha. So I thought I shouldn’t over-exert myself by walking to school (in heels might I add, which is mandatory at my school 😛 ).
Anyways, I read somewhere that caffeine is an ingredient in a lot of painkillers. So it just clicked in my mind that all the Starbucks trips I’ve made must have increased my pain tolerance slowly over the years. And God knows how much I love Starbucks, and how often I drink it…hehe…So, naturally, once I was able enough, I decided to go to Starbucks! (Haha, hey, I brought homework so I could chill there and be productive too, okay?)
I’m afraid I can’t write too much today, since I’ve got lots of stuff to do for tomorrow. “Why am I writing at all?”, you ask. Well, this couldn’t wait, so here goes…
I’m now extremely ashamed and disappointed with myself. I just feel so embarrassed all the time now…like, I almost don’t wanna leave the house anymore due to sheer embarrassment. ALMOST! I’ve done that before, and I don’t wanna be that kind of person again. I told myself I’d change this year, but it seems like the more I try, I become something much worse 😦
Hey guys 🙂
Two posts in a row…so far, so good. I felt slightly better after ranting yesterday, and it reminded me of why I started this blog in the first place. I started this blog last year because I was being put (and putting myself) under a lot of unnecessary pressure. And I couldn’t really talk to anyone about it because I’m a coward. I’ve known that for a while…There’s this thing in Psychology when a person has such low self-confidence that they project it as over-confidence…I think, for me, it’s this PLUS my ego.
Super sorry I’ve been gone for so many months. School was out for me for so long that I got too bored to do anything for a long while 😦 And now that I’m in college, and having classes again, I’m still feeling a mixture of excitement, anxiety and boredom.
It’s my third month schooling back here in the Philippines, and so far I’ve had lows…and highs…and many many lows again. I don’t get it anymore. I mean, it’s definitely different here from Singapore. Continue reading
Happy Friday the 13th! (The second one of 2015 actually…)
(Just f.y.i., ’13’ just happens to be my luckiest number, and ‘Friday the 13th’ has never failed to be one of the better days in my life so far.)
So I’ve been really free lately, which leaves me a lot (too much) time to think. And my mind just can’t seem to stop thinking back on the embarrassing, funny, scary, anxious, fun, happy, sad and generally memorable moments I’ve had in SOTA (my former high school)…I think this is what people think/feel before they start seeking closure, am I right? And if ‘closure’ is what I want, then I really have to visit them really soon. It’s starting to get annoying.
Anyways, I brought that up because I started reflecting on my ‘Arts journey’ in SOTA, if that makes any sense, and I realized that I auditioned into SOTA under Visual Arts ONLY because it was what I thought would be beneficial and it was what I was more passionate about at the time…But after just a month in that school, I quickly realized that I may have joined the wrong art form. Why? Well…
Happy Chinese New Year of the Goat 🙂 I personally don’t celebrate it, but a significant amount of people in the world do so why not say it?
Anyways, I wanted to share this weird thing that happened to me last year. Call it coincidence, call it fate, call it superstition, call it…mental instability! But this is how I saw it, and you won’t have much say in how you’ll see it. (So sorry.)
Hey guys! Hope you’re all doing fine 🙂 I know I am! I’m just so happy nowadays, probably because I went through what came close to hell last year… Continue reading