Aaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnddddd I’m back, guys!
[Just thought I’d post something real quick. Oh, and btw, I’ve been getting so much traffic from IG ever since I put a link to this blog on my profile…cool beans. Thanks, random strangers who may or may not be stalkers.]
I can’t help but feel that I’ve ruined my life on so many levels, and I continue to ruin it even though I’m fully aware how I’m ruining it. I just think about things too much, and it leads me to come up with these bewildering and often stupid conclusions.
I wish it could stop. I wish I could stop. I wish everything would JUST. STOP. I need to take a breather…from life. Not even long weekends and holidays give me the rest I need anymore. I feel like everything is just so draining. Continue reading
I miss you so much.
7 years ago, I ruined everything. I don’t know why I said those things. I was just a stupid little kid; temperamental, easily jealous, incapable of making sane decisions.
I regret everything I did to you. I was the worst friend ever. Continue reading
Hey, hey! What’s up, everyone?
I know, I know. It’s been a long while. Sorry about that…again. It seems like I just can’t shake the old habit of never finishing anyth
Speaking of, I started multiple (and kind of ambitious) art projects near the end of 2015 and at the very beginning of 2016. First, I started not one, not two, but THREE new art journals sometime before Christmas break. I messed up one, so it was down to two by the time school closed for the Christmas break. One of them was going very strong, inspired by one of my classmates who was VERY diligent with her many Moleskine journals. Then school started again and I lost sight of why I wanted to finish it in the first place. Same with the other one which I’ve left absolutely blank, aside from the covers. Also during this time, my mom and I worked very hard to get the four different Starbucks planners (which is now a custom for at least the two of us). I absolutely love Starbucks, and I especially loved their 2016 planners because they were MOLESKINE JOURNALS! (Yup, inspired by that same classmate as well.) We got help from my mom’s colleagues, who seemed to see it as a charity case hehe…
I’m afraid I can’t write too much today, since I’ve got lots of stuff to do for tomorrow. “Why am I writing at all?”, you ask. Well, this couldn’t wait, so here goes…
I’m now extremely ashamed and disappointed with myself. I just feel so embarrassed all the time now…like, I almost don’t wanna leave the house anymore due to sheer embarrassment. ALMOST! I’ve done that before, and I don’t wanna be that kind of person again. I told myself I’d change this year, but it seems like the more I try, I become something much worse 😦
Hey guys 🙂
Two posts in a row…so far, so good. I felt slightly better after ranting yesterday, and it reminded me of why I started this blog in the first place. I started this blog last year because I was being put (and putting myself) under a lot of unnecessary pressure. And I couldn’t really talk to anyone about it because I’m a coward. I’ve known that for a while…There’s this thing in Psychology when a person has such low self-confidence that they project it as over-confidence…I think, for me, it’s this PLUS my ego.
Super sorry I’ve been gone for so many months. School was out for me for so long that I got too bored to do anything for a long while 😦 And now that I’m in college, and having classes again, I’m still feeling a mixture of excitement, anxiety and boredom.
It’s my third month schooling back here in the Philippines, and so far I’ve had lows…and highs…and many many lows again. I don’t get it anymore. I mean, it’s definitely different here from Singapore. Continue reading
Happy Chinese New Year of the Goat 🙂 I personally don’t celebrate it, but a significant amount of people in the world do so why not say it?
Anyways, I wanted to share this weird thing that happened to me last year. Call it coincidence, call it fate, call it superstition, call it…mental instability! But this is how I saw it, and you won’t have much say in how you’ll see it. (So sorry.)
Hello once again, cyber world!
First things first, my apologies for neglecting this blog. I got caught up in my school work and so much teenage, hormonal drama stuff…plus, I went on a service trip to Tarlac, Philippines, which went splendid by the way.
So the school year here is coming to an end…exams are right around the corner, after which we have our various overseas school trips, and then, I think, some concluding lessons once we get back. I’ve already said my farewell to a couple of teachers. It was nice to see they were as affected and saddened by it as I was. Never thought/realized they really did care about us. Actually, right now, I’m in the middle of skipping a class. Continue reading
DISCLAIMER: this post gets REALLY messy…I mean REALLY messy. You’ve been warned.
Feeling really drained lately. I don’t know why. I’ve been getting at least 8 hours of sleep, and I take ciestas(aka naps) on weekends for like hours at a time. I’ve been eating healthy–no soda or fast food at all–and exercising. (Well, I haven’t been taking my meds, but I haven’t done that in a LONG while so I doubt it’ll make a difference.) So I don’t know what’s wrong………..well, maybe I do…