Heyyo, people of the Internet!
Finally back with another post! It’s actually the start of our finals this week, and it ends some time next week (and then summer break, here I come). But, as usual, I don’t really study for any of my exams…especially now that I’m taking Fine Arts and most of my exams can’t exactly be studied. So if I’m not already being honest enough right now, exam time is actually when I am the most free.
Growing up in a country (or maybe I should say continent) that puts SO MUCH importance on school and grades, I often observed most of my classmates/schoolmates being so stressed and lethargic during exam time, due to burning the midnight oil, being too nit-picky with their assignments, mental and emotional breakdowns, and even suicidal thoughts. And I just felt really bad for them because they’re growing up thinking that school and grades are just that – super stressful and the only thing that will make their parents proud.
Personally, studying everyday even until the day of the exam has never worked. I get so stressed and so engrossed in all the info I’m trying to absorb that my mind just becomes so….artificial? Like I’m a computer storing all this info that I’ll probably only use for that one day. It felt like my humanity was just draining out of me like a running tap. Continue reading